don't want to regret another minute.

friends only.
 

Comment to be added.

i don't know why i'm doing this, honestly. just trying to fight writer's block by lining everything up in the back of my mind, i guess. this has been sitting in googledocs for i don't know how long now. i want to write girls this way again, so maybe opening this up will help.

2000 words of untitled ryan/brendon as girls. nc-17.
warning: this is very rough and clearly unfinished, contains no capitalizations and the grammar isn't flawless.

( you could be my unintended )

a short thing written for colorofsmoke on the train. not sure if she ever got it cause my email was failing horribly. happy holidays, everyone.

soundtrack: Everblue -- Mandy Moore

Title: But I Have Wondered Since
Author:  hitchedtoastar 
Pairing: Kris/Adam friendship, Kris/Katy.
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 3,200 words.
Author's Notes: Title and cut text by e.e. cummings. Much love & thanks to colorofsmoke , of course, because this couldn't have been done without her. This fic DOES use proper capitalization, for those  who opposed my creative choice of not using caps on previous fics.
Summary: Kris wonders if his and Adam's friendship will change or weaken upon the end of tour and them going separate ways to work on their respective albums.

( when you went away it was morning )

( media only. six pictures + Cry Baby )

this is probably coming a lot late, but i've spent too long trying to decide what to say and how to say it the right way, and. i never really came up with anything, so here goes nothing --

for various personal reasons i am dropping out of bandom. i sort of did so gradually over the last  month or two, but consider this my formal statement. it's not because of anyone in bandom; there are still a few people on my flist that i love dearly and would love to have you stick around. i am not that person anymore, and bandom itself wasn't really making me smile or hearthappy the way it used to, so i felt it was time to let go.

if you haven't realized which boys & girls make my heart sing now, have been staking their claim for a while now, well.  i'm not about to start posting every day rambling about them, because i generally save that particular flailing and hearteyes for conversations with colorofsmoke  . but i have noticed quite a few on my flist switching over and taking interest, so if anyone wants to talk about them with me or just wave hi in general, i am totally open to that! AIM = salty daydream, and i won't turn down anyone who gives me a shout.

in the next week or so i will probably be locking away all of my old panic fic. i feel terrible doing so because i know it can be annoying to someone who wants to read or whatever else, but it just isn't something i feel comfortable or happy having out there anymore. i truly am sorry, guys.

for those who are putout by this announcement, feel free to defriend or do whatever you need to do -- no hard feelings either way, i promise! for anyone who wants to add or stick around, i would love to meet new people and spark new conversations and friendships!

if you got this far, thank you for listening to my rambling. i love you all dearly, and i mean that from the bottom of my heart. ♥

Title: Once Wings
Adam Lambert/Kris Allen
Summary: Adam kisses dirty, of course he does. Self-indulgent PWP basically.
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Not true, didn't happen.
Author's notes: Title from a quote by Martha Graham.
Word count: ~1300 words.


( our arms start from the back because they were once wings )

Unless The Dreamer Is The Real You

01. deleted scene: set sometime early on in the competition.

( deleted scene )


02. bonus scene: set a month or so after the finale, during the idol tour.

( bonus scene )

'unless the dreamer is the real you'
adam lambert/kris allen
summary: kris lives and learns through the weeks of american idol, finding outside comfort and companionship along the way.
rating: pg-13
author's notes: the thought of adam lambert in 'head bitch' shirt/shorts from the genius mind of colorofsmoke  , particularly this. the idea of kris singing buckley's hallelujah also expanded upon from the mind of the lovely colorofsmoke  :D title from jason mraz's 'make it mine'. adam's zeppelin song is babe i'm gonna leave you.
word count: ~5700 words, 6300 with deleted&bonus scenes.

for meg. ♥

*

( wake up everyone how can you sleep at a time like this )

 don't lie in bed at night staring at the ceiling.
ryan/brendon | pg-13 | ~1700 words.
for colorofsmoke   .

Let us go then, you and I
When the evening is spread out against the sky

. . .

Do I dare
Disturb the universe?


( And shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets )

Best ever, end of story.

another fricking hilarious commercial from Ellen --

happy holidays, everyone. ♥♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, colorofsmoke  !!!!!!!!!!!!!


I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH.

does anyone have mp3s of America's Suitehearts and/or the Academy's Winter Passing ?
i only have 90 cents left on itunes, it is tragic.

if you believe in change, clap your hands.